Hello my lovelies! As part of Blogmas, I really wanted to give you some more personal posts and this is one thing that I’ve never talked about before publicly, and I honestly think I should. I had a really bad stammer , it’s still here sometimes. Just thought that I would give you more of an insight into Living With A Stammer!
What is a Stammer?
A stammer is where your speech is filled with involuntary pauses, blocks and/or reputations. You basically know what to say but when you try and talk, the words hit a wall and refuse to come out.
My Life with a Stammer?
After hearing stories I think I know what caused my stammer. When I was just learning to walk and talk, I got really sick. Like when I say really sick, I was crazily sick. I was having fits etc and had to be in hospital. I was just learning to walk and talk. I do believe the trauma of that incident had caused my stammer when I was doing research about it online and talking to other people.
I’ve had a stammer since I could walk. I don’t remember much when I was younger other than being bullied for it – which I don’t blame the kids as I was in Junior Infants to Second Class. After Second Class, I got so caged in and honestly didn’t know how to handle my stammer. I was so frustrated and honestly it made me feel like crap.
I was always trying to talk ( I’m the type of person that could talk for Ireland ) but it would never come out. It would take me three to four times at a time to just get one or two words out. It was so disheartening. I was doing Speech Therapy for years and I still remember going to it in Dublin and seeing the doctors. Speech Therapy was hard – I could pronounce a number of different sounds or works like K,C or the word hospital was the main word for me.
I used to be so nervous so read or even speak in class as people would laugh when I couldn’t read an extract from the book. It was so disheartening and I’m honestly shocked over the way people reacted.
When I turned 16 years old, something just happened over that Halloween. I was away with my family and some family friends. My stammer is eased off as I learned to slow down my talking and take breathes – which was critical. I was so surprised and how quickly I noticed a change.
I still am nervous reading out loud or even talking to people at first because of my stammer but now I’ve learned to not be ashamed of it, and realized it’s a part of me which won’t change. I also really only stammer when I get nervous or talk really fast now which is amazing.
Do you know anyone with a stammer or do you have one yourself?
Love, Bee ox